The last three days. What I am.

In the last three days I've learned some things. Most of them are, long term speaking, good things to know. I learned (once again) what I believe. I learned what a friend believes. I learned that she won't be with me because of her beliefs. I learned it's not my fault. I learned how long it takes to walk to 34th street from Freebirds. I learned I'm still OK. I learned I wasn't on the rebound. I learned I wasn't in love. I learned to watch my mouth. I learned to set an alarm. I learned that my paranoia wasn't enough to end a relationship. I learned the perfect woman is still out there. I learned more about said perfect woman. I learned she wants nothing more than to stay in and watch a movie every friday night. I learned I might not be ready for her. I learned Freebirds isn't quite as good without company, or it may have been that I forgot the BBQ sauce. I learned that there are people not too far away that are much worse off than I am. I learned that I still like sunflower seeds and combos. I learned Ron White isn't as funny as he once was. I learned I can survive on my own. I learned what a hypocrite really is. I learned the devastating effects of guilt. I learned that crazy chicks are crazy. I learned that it doesn't always hurt. I learned how quickly things change. I learned how easy it is to expand the present into the future. I learned I can still do my best, and no more. I learned the value of $1.09. I learned it is a bad idea to eat a giant burrito and then walk a few miles at a brisk pace. I learned that it had been to long since I had eaten a hamburger. I learned that a lot can happen if you let it. I learned to open up more. I learned when to stop.


I also learned when to keep going. Here are some thoughts as to what I am. These are also posted on facebook.


I am male. I am a meat eater. I am a book lover. I am trustworthy. I am a film lover. I am a paranoid of the nth degree. I am loyal. I am a self loathing playwright. I am a libertarian. I am easy going. I am helpful. I am firm in my beliefs. I am an actor with middling talent. I am friendly. I am healing. I am a pack rat. I am an amateur. I am courteous. I am one who delights in all forms of theatre. I am that guy in the hat. I am kind. I am alone. I am slightly existential. I am obedient. I am an honors college mentor. I am a collector of gnomes. I am cheerful. I am the owner of many black t-shirts. I am thrifty. I am not quick to anger. I am protective. I am brave. I am a student for life. I am going to have an effect. I am loved. I am prone to making mistakes. I am honest. I am forgiven. I am much more bark than bite. I am clean. I am hopeless. I am alive. I am a teetotaler. I am reverent. I am reasonable. I am rash. I am a consumer. I am an Eagle Scout. I am analytical. I am a collector of input. I am intellectual. I am a maximizer. I am a leader. I am relatively computer savvy. I am a blogger. I am a listener. I am full of solutions for problems you didn't know you had. I am telling you more than you wanted to know. I am a Texan. I am a work in progress. I am here. I am forgiving. I am only so pliable. I am singing. I am going to double check. I am quiet. I am unknown. I am far from finished.  ¶ 6/16/2007 11:25:00 PM