Another Thought This one came to me today.

Everything should be sold in vending machines. There is such a great convenience in being able to buy things from a machine.

Suppertime

Labels: vending machines

  ¶ 10/30/2007 08:40:00 PM (0) comments

  Some Recent Thoughts These are in little to no order.

I thought for a period of time that, it if wasn't for the sex with men thing, I could handle being gay. But the I realized that I don't understand men any more than I do women.

While I understand the concept of "dating Jesus" I don't think it's a very effective system. The world is not like a romantic comedy (as much as we might like it to be) and the perfect person will not stumble into your life in a whirlwind of coincidence and perfect mistakes. God doesn't work that way, it's too lame.

Apparently I have poor taste in women. Well that may not be exactly a shocker, but I have gained some new information in the past twenty-four hours that have reinforced the theory.

Sometimes I wish I was as dark, brooding and mysterious as I appear upon first sighting. Although I don't know if I actually appear dark, brooding or mysterious, but I'd like to think I do.

I feel bad for you two. You are still being dragged along behind her. I'm glad I got out. I want to feel bad for her too, but I just can't bring myself to feel those emotions.

I have seriously considered doing something stupid in the past few weeks. Well actually I did something stupid a few weeks ago, but I did it anonymously. This second thing might possibly make it not anonymous. And if my intrepid readers are smart they might be able to figure out what it was simply because I am writing about it here. That is the chance I take.

My writer's bock has broken a little it seems. The ideas are still few and far between, but at least I'm writing again.

I got paid fifty dollars for acting at LCT. I then went out and bought How I Met Your Mother season two. I love this show. It is very re-watchable.

I have to start looking for grad schools soon. Which means I have to start trying to decide what I wan to do in grad school. I thought I wanted to go into playwriting, and I do, but Dr. Chansky recently told me that she thinks I would do well in research. Despite all the warnings I have heard, I think Dr. Chansky actually likes me.

I submitted a script to RROAPS, and I am really afraid that I am being too hopeful about it. I really don't think I should expect to get picked, because the odds aren't in my favor, but I find myself thinking about the production and talking about it as if it had already been selected.

I'm also afraid about my trip to Canada. I really have very little planned and that's how I want it. However, I'm not sure it will turn out well.

I'm going to bed now.

I got so much to say
And all of it's cliché

Labels: anonymous, brooding, Canada, DVD, gay, grad school, Jesus, mysterious, paycheck, playwriting, poor boys, random, research, RROAPS, script, stupid, thoughts, women, Writer's block, writing

  ¶ 10/29/2007 10:54:00 PM (0) comments

  Ineffable So I'm confused.

I've spent the last week or so hanging out a lot with Sara and her friends. This has been fun but I'm not exactly sure what to make of it. We hang and we talk and we do things but I'm not ever quite aware of where I stand. I enjoy hanging out with these folks and if that's all it ever is I'm OK with that. But if there is something along the lines of interest from Sara I'd like to just get it out and quit pussyfooting around.

I'm also having a serious case of writer's block. Both here and in my scripts. This worries me.

Say a little prayer for Mr. Fancy Pants

Labels: confused, friends, hang out, ineffable, Mr. Fancy Pants, Writer's block

  ¶ 10/27/2007 01:42:00 PM (0) comments

  Passion of Faith, or God High I am a Christian. Just thought I should get that out there.

Tonight was a very interesting evening. At 1:20 I receive a call and head out with some people to go stargazing. We drive out to the middle of nowhere and look at a meteor shower. Really cool. We then Go to Wal-Mart and buy some cheesecake. We then go back to Bledsoe and eat the cheesecake. We then hang out and play Mafia for a while. One of the guys offers to give me a ride back to my dorm.

On the way back we start talking about Christianity. Not a good idea. I explain my views and he does the same. He talks about how sometimes he is filled with passion. This reminds me of the "God Highs" people would talk about after coming back from a retreat. This sort of thing has always confused me. I believe in God and salvation through Christ. I always believe that. I can't believe in it any more or less. It is a universal constant. My faith is not going anywhere. I was baptized and I am saved. I believe all who believe they are saved are. There is nothing that can be done to make one saved. No physical or outward anything. Salvation is a personal thing between a person and God. People like him remind me of the parable of the two men at the temple, where one yelled ad drew attention about his sins and the other prayed quietly to himself. The way people go on about passion and God Highs seem to me like the first man. You aren't supposed to be the first man. This is a little rambley, because I have been up for 21 hours.

Labels: Christianity, faith, passion, salvation

  ¶ 10/21/2007 06:12:00 AM (0) comments

  Across the Universe and Time Off So Across the Universe finally made it's way to Lubbock. Yay.

It was a decent movie. You should probably go watch it.

This was going to be a much longer review but you can find very descriptive reviews elsewhere and I just don't want to bother.

In other news: Tonight is the first free weeknight I've had in a long time and it's good to be able to kick back and enjoy myself. I got done working shop hours for the day, came home took a shower and just relaxed. So far I've watched some TV, played some video games, I'm writing this blog, and I think I'll catch up on some reading next.

Sad Girl, taking every cue from every ad, girl.

Labels: Across the Universe, reading, time off, TV

  ¶ 10/16/2007 06:45:00 PM (0) comments

  Bhavas and Rasas Today has been a mixture.

The day began when I woke up and found Callahan sitting on the couch in the dark staring into space because he couldn't figure out how to turn on the TV.

Callahan came to visit from TCU to see me in Laughter on the 23rd Floor and spent the night because he didn't want to drive back at night.

I got dressed and we went to Spanky's for lunch. However the line was incredibly long at Spanky's so we went to Rasin' Cain down the street. It was good but not incredible.

After lunch we went to meet a friend of Callahan's who also goes to Tech. We couldn't talk for long because the friend is in the band and had to go to practice for the game.

I took Callahan back to his car and he left.

I came back to my room and did something I'm not proud of and don't want to talk about.

I was not feeling well so I called John to talk about it, but he was playing WoW and watching the game at Connor's so he couldn't really talk.

Eventually I went to the theatre for tonights show.

The show went wonderfully, the audience laughed at everything and we fed off that to make it even better. Although after the show a woman told me I reminded her of Ashton Kutcher. This was meant as a compliment, but was still a little painful.

After the show we discussed where to go and settled on Skooner's, because it's Karaoke night. I'm enjoying myself and telling the story of my previous exploits with Karaoke.

Andrew and I get to the bar at the same time and walk in. There's a guy at the door checking IDs and of course mine says I'm underage. He tells em they don't let anybody in under 21. This is of course bullshit because two nights ago I was sitting in the very same bar. Additionally I could have ordered a triple shot of tequila and nobody would have batted an eye.

I hate the laws in this country sometimes. Why on earth can somebody have all the rights of a citizen except the one to imbibe alcohol? I can smoke 3 packs a day which will kill me much quicker but God forbid I have a glass of champaign.

(Not that I'm in favor of more cigarette legislation either, I should have the right to choose what I do with my body, as should everybody else)

Also I got Psychonauts in the mail today and Allen gave me a CD with all of Modest Mouse's music on it.

Try Try Try.

Labels: Ashton Kutcher, bar, bhava, Callahan, food, government, karaoke, mixture, Modest Mouse, performance, rasa, rules, secret, theatre

  ¶ 10/13/2007 11:13:00 PM (0) comments

  I'm a Cynic I know, shock.

It's probably just the fact that I haven't been in a steady relationship for nine months now, but I can't help but laugh inwardly when I hear or see somebody talk about the love of their life. Especially people my own age. According to something called the Flynn effect every generation is smarter than the one before it, on average. Yet it seems (old man alert here) every generation is less mature as well. 30 is the new 20, college is the new high school. If these are the best years of my life, why do people keep living? Not to say I'm not enjoying my life but if it peaks at 24 why not stop there? The love of your life is not that easy to find, you are just really happy right now. You will probably be just as happy in the arms of some future person and in some cases you may have already been. Love is a roller coaster. Just get on and enjoy the ride while it lasts.

Also this is my 150th post. Yay.

That’s when I’m gonna make you cry

Labels: cynic, life, love, roller coaster

  ¶ 10/06/2007 03:44:00 AM (0) comments

  Nothing. I want to blog about something but I have nothing worthwhile to say.

I think I'll make this a blogging over time thing. I'll leave the window open and just type in thoughts as I get them.

Girls in glasses are hot.

Family guy is stupid.

Every single person in the world is not.

I spent an hour at Wal-mart today and didn't buy a single thing.

My sister has me listed as her top friend on MySpace. I don't know what to make of that.

I just flipped off my television. That is to say I gave it the finger, not turned off the power.

Radiohead is letting people download their new album and pay whatever they think is fair. This is cool. I probably never would have listened to Radiohead on my own, but this has greatly increased my chances of listening to at least this album.

Aristotle had it easy.

My suitemate has been having way too much sex. It's getting annoying.

I'm angry about doctrinal infighting.

It's illegal to sell sex toys in Louisiana. I hate the government. Why is selling anything illegal? Why is owning anything illegal? The act of trade is the basis for human interaction.

I got my first paycheck from Tech today. Wow, money is cool.

Someone once told me (indirectly) that once you date a woman, her friends are off limits forever. I can understand this in some situations, but I have to wonder more about the specifics. Is there a certain level of acquaintance that is acceptable for dating? Obviously top tier friends are off and I would probably even say that tiers two and three are no go. But what if the level of friends is nothing more than being Facebook friends? Or what if the friendship is only discovered after a relationship has begun? I suppose that the level of friendship would partially dictate the amount of time before discovery. If they were good friends it would be discovered much earlier. From here we can possibly create a timetable related to friend level. If six months go by without discovering a shared person in each member of the relationship's past, the level of friendship is suitably low so it would not become necessary to break it off. Of course if the relationship is being actively hidden from the third person, the system doesn't count.

I am actively reading seven different books right now. I would like to finish a couple of them but the others keep getting in the way.

I haven't played my uke in a few weeks. That really bothers me.

It's now almost midnight. I think I'll go to bed.

Then come back to the future.

Labels: books, download, glasses, government, money, MySpace, nothing, Radiohead, relationships, rules, single, sister, TV, ukulele, Wal-Mart

  ¶ 10/02/2007 10:40:00 PM (0) comments