An End of the Year Post

My second year of college.

While it might be a little late I'm going to do a little pre-summer wrap up. The fall semester began with me joining the Theatre department at tech. This was a big step for me and it took me a few weeks into the semester to actually make the decision. I wanted to do it but still couldn't convince myself that it would be a good idea and turn out all right in the end. In retrospect I was the last one one to know that I was going to make the decision, My parents knew as soon as I told them that I didn't think engineering was for me. This decision was without a doubt for the best. I have had so much fun and been much happier in theatre than I was in engineering and most importantly, this is what I want to do.

This isn't to say that it's been all sunshine and daisy pops (whatever those are.) I've done some hard work and had some trouble with scheduling, but I don't remember ever really complaining. I received a thank you note from my Stage Manager after Mockingbird and one of the things she thanked me for was my patience and not complaining. I suppose i could have but I knew it wouldn't amount to anything, and I was having fun, even if i had one of the smallest parts.

I met some amazing people and even though some of them won't be coming back these are friendships that will last for quite a while. My first semester was spent almost entirely with Kels and her roommate. This had it's advantages and disadvantages. One advantage was gaining a new friend. Andy (her blog name) was at first just sort of a third wheel, but when Kels dumped me I came to realize how good a friend she is. She helped me when I was down, crazy and stuck with me when I was hurtful.

This leads to a slightly less happy subject: The Breakup. Sometime in the past Kels grew tired of me. This showed itself in a coupe ways. First she just argued with me a lot more and treated me like dirt. (yes this is biased, deal with it) Then she cheated on me. Then she dumped me and lied to me about going out with someone else. I haven't forgiven her and I don't know if I ever will. In retrospect the wort part is when she lied. I'm not a terribly trusting person and by that I mean I'm a paranoid freak. The after three years together she still lied to me hurt more than anything. Also I feel very little sympathy toward her. This is because although it may not have been easy for her, it was much worse for me. this is a matter of opinion but it's my opinion and I'm sticking to it.

The breakup did have some upsides to it however. I got closer to Andy and John, who are now my best friends, even if they aren't still at Tech. John went through something similar to my breakup at the same time and we both helped each other through it. And while some bridges have burned I do now realize that things are better now, and that Kels wasn't good enough for me. I hope she's happy living in Lubbock for the rest of her life. I also went to therapy for a couple months which was fun. my therapist wasn't the best but she gave me someone to talk to and just empty myself to, once a week.

I auditioned for the spring productions and was cast in both Pillowman and Mockingbird. My parts were small but the cast of Pillowman was so great and Mockingbird was fun too. I claimed I wasn't really an actor but that may be proving false. I've also written some more. Nothing quite finished yet but some really neat new ideas.

Overall this was a good school year. I am where I need to be and doing what i need to do. I got a four point both semesters.

I also posted a video for Jonathan Coulton's song I Feel Fantastic on youtube. It's a song that helped me get through the year at the tough parts and helped me celebrate the good ones.

Say a prayer for Mr. Fancy Pants  ¶ 5/14/2007 10:17:00 PM